Verse 1: Gbm i was just a kid but i learned much too fast A found the internet way too young, a scar that would last D And you know I hate thinking someone else did this to me Bm But I had all the resources because of your enabling Gbm And sometimes i wonder if i didn’t hurt so bad A Would I have been more lovable to my mom and my dad D if I went back in time to see six year old me Db Id say this xxxx does not get better, this is who you’re meant to be and Chorus: A i'm a monster so you say and Db i do this on purpose anyway Gbm i need to feel this pain so i can D try to crawl away when you say my name A Hold me down and scream at me Db You said, this is where I deserve to be Gbm So keep pretending you love me D A And I’ll believe you although you never show it to me Verse 2: Gbm “Wow you’re such a quiet kid” they all would say to me A Don’t call me an old soul when i’m just unhappy D You treated me like an adult when i was still so young Bm You ask what you did wrong but you xxxxing knew it all along Gbm i know that Ii was difficult or that’s how you felt A but i was told that i was selfish when i needed xxxxing help D i remember when i lied to you i ran away and hid Bm but you didn’t have to hurt me I was just a little kid Db i was just a little kid Db and now i'm still a little kid Chorus: A I'm a monster so you say Db and I do this on purpose anyway Gbm I need to feel this pain so I can D try to crawl away when you say my name A Hold me down and scream at me Db You said this is where I deserve to be Gbm So keep pretending you love me D I’ll believe you, I’ll believe you Outro: A I'm a monster so you say Db7 Db7 and I do this on purpose anyway Gbm I need to feel this pain so I can D try to crawl away when you say my name A Hold me down and scream at me Db You said this is where I deserve to be Gbm So keep pretending you love me D A I’ll believe you but you’ll never show it to me
